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Name: Erin
Birthday: 10/26/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: church, choir, golf, volleyball, watching anime with 10 other ppl crammed in someone's dorm room, sleeping, eating home cooked food (dorm food sucks!), playing guitar/drawing/reading when i have the time...having fun at college =)
Expertise: being a cute nerd
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message me
AIM:  xchibixpinayx
Member Since:
11/27/2003
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| happy new year to all. also, good luck to all of us who are going back to school. (unlike some of you suckas...i didn't have school today  haha! just kidding!) my grades weren't nearly as bad as i thought they were going to be, which is great (but i still didn't do that well). also, my new year was not all too eventful. just a movie with some friends and completely missing the ball drop on tv, oh well. i can hardly believe that it's already 2007! i remember when it was new year's eve of 2000....it doesn't seem to have been that long ago, but i suppose time just flies like that. in just a little over 9 months, i'll be 21. how weird is that?? hopefully it will be a fun birthday (with no midterms...haha) unlike the past few years. as for new years resolutions, i didn't actually make any for this specific year. i think that i'm always trying to improve myself...so there's no need for a "list". but as for self improvement, i'm going to try and get back into shape and go to the gym, definitely get my grades up (hopefully), work more and spend less (although that might be hard at first if i'm still really thinking about applying to express), get around to reading more books, and just be more active in church. hopefully the new year will be a good motivation for me to try and get on these things, but everyone always tries at the beginning and everything always seems to fall through soon after. oh well, we'll see. speaking of reading more, i think i'm going to go do that now. goodnight to all. | | |
| so finals are finally done. YAY!! "NOW IT'S OVERRRR!"
i'm really glad that finals are finally over, but they really sucked. i was doing so well at the beginning of the quarter and then i guess i just started to slack off or things just got really hard or something. i hope that i pass all of my classes  . it saddens me so much that i have to hope to just pass my classes now...but whatever, this part is done and it's just time to move on.
it just came to my attention that i haven't been the happiest person to try and talk to lately, and i'm sorry for all of you who tried to cheer me up but i was so stressed out for about 3 weeks. i also came to a realization that i don't have many friends...haha. or at least not that many that i wouldn't feel awkward in just calling up and saying "lets hang out" randomly. it's not that i would feel awkward in just hanging out with people, i guess i just don't want to bother people with their busy lives and i guess i don't feel like i know them well enough to be so spontaneous....i don't really know.
but despite everything....i'm going home tomorrow!!! plus i'm going to go see panic! at the disco and jack's mannequin tonight in san diego. i'm really excited about that. this will be my SECOND concert ever. yay!
anyway, i'll update more later i suppose. bye bye.
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| so happy birthday to my xanga....yet another year has passed since junior or senior year of high school since i first made this thing.
to say in the least, happy belated thanksgiving to all who still read this. hope everyone had a good mini-break before all the crazy finals start rolling around (of which, good luck on those)
first i would like to start off with how great (but right now, not looking so great) thanksgiving break was. i got to see my cousins and the babyyyyy! i'll try posting pics on here or my myspace later of her. she is too adorable for words. and i always LOVE hanging out with my cousins....they're like all my older sisters that i never had. i can't wait to see them again hopefully of winter break in a few weeks...and maybe go snowboarding with a few of them =D. the food was pretty good too, my family still made way too much again this year....but that's just how filipinos roll. friday through today was pretty fun and depressing at the same time. i think it was kind of an emotional rollercoaster for everyone. although lots of stuff went down, i'm glad that i got to at least hang out with the people i did end up hanging out with. i'm sorry to you other bako kids that i missed this time around, hopefully next time. i wish that this break was just a day or two longer, i really don't want to have to get back into the whole school thing right now...there is just soo much to do. but once it's over, it's OVER for the quarter and we all get to start fresh again. i'm looking forward to that hahaha. plus the new year too, it's gives me incentive to try to do things differently and RIGHT this time around...and learn from mistakes.
anyway, so i had read a few of my old entries (from around the time that i just started this thing a few years ago) and it's really amazing how much i've changed. i mean, i guess that's the point of keeping journals and whatever....i never have had a hand written one, but this seemed to work out just as well. i'm not sure if i'm glad or sad that i have been updating this every so often nowadays....to compare my new college self to my old high school self. it seemed like i used to be happier back then. maybe i was....i don't really know. i guess it is easy to confuse happiness with naivetey. but i would like to believe that i used to be happy at some point.....but i'm also not saying that i have not been happy lately. i am very happy for the few moments that i get to spend time with certain people and when i just get to forget all my worries and headaches of my life and just be with and take care of the people who mean the most to me. i guess this is all just apart of growing up really....which kind of saddens me. i mean, when i was a kid...i couldn't wait to grow up and do grown-up things. and lately, the majority of the time....this whole being a grown-up is just being more of a disappointment. is it just me? i mean, just when did things start to get so hard to the point where it drives us crazy and deprives us of sleep and where all you can do is just sit by yourself and think...and no matter how much thinking you do, you never arrive at an answer (or at least not a good answer). even comparing myself right now to my freshman college self is really different....i used to hate going home, and now all i ever want to do is be at home. when do these things change??? they seem to just change out of nowhere. for the most part, i guess i like the kind of person that i have become. i think that my parents' efforts in raising me have succeeded and i think that i have come out to be at least somewhat of a kind and caring person...someone who isn't really selfish and who tries their best...i think that i have also learned from my cousins' and brother's mistakes or at least the best that i could. i kind of wish i started listening to my parents sooner on situations....maybe i could have avoided some mishaps. but i think that learning the "hard way" is a better way to learn. even though it may be hard or difficult or it might bring heartache, it's still an experience that no one can take away from you later. words are just words, but experiences are much more personal...they are actually priceless. i'm not really sure what my point is....just kind of writng some stream of consciousness. i guess that much hasn't really changed in the past 3 or 4 years...i still like to ramble about philosophical and hypothetical things that really never have a conclusion...only a beginning and sort of a body.
but i guess i'm done now....i could come up with more BS about nothing, but it would just make even less sense and probably be boring. so, until next time. goodnight to you all.
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| my mommy grounded me from over 150 miles away.  i was going to try and go home next weekend, but she wants me to stay in irvine and study....i guess she noticed that i don't do any homework or studying while i'm at home. haha. but i guess it's for the best, i haven't been doing too well on my midterms and i really really need to get my grades up. my master plan is to take 5 years to graduate. i'll finish all my engineering stuff in the regular 4 years, and try to study abroad in japan for my 5th year and get all my digital arts minor stuff done with there. it might not even take an entire year...maybe two quarters or something...but it would be pretty sweet to study in japan for at least a quarter or two. sometimes i get so discouraged with my grades that i question if i'm really cut out for engineering. i mean, i really love it...i think it's really interesting and it's something that i really want to do, i don't think there is anything else i would rather be doing really. but surrounded by so many friends who are way smarter than me and who seem to get this stuff without trouble....i dunno, i'm just kinda down. i'm also really burned out from midterms and i know that i haven't been eating well at all (sometimes i don't even have time to eat) and all i seem to do is study and sleep. i wish someone was around to help me out a little and at least relieve some stress and calm me down a little. it's just hard having to do everything on my own...even if my parents trained me to be independent. sorry to whoever reads this and has to interact with me....sorry i've been so uptight and not fun. i kinda wish i was back in high school...where things were easy and someone really loved me and i could handle everything. | | |
| hell is finally over. (well, for the most part) thanks for all the birthday wishes, greetings, presents, calls, IMs, and love. although my actual birthday sucked (due to a midterm), all was made right over the weekend. i'm getting so burned out from school. sleep, home, and lots of fun things is what i need to help get over this depressing funk that school haunts me with. anyone want to go on a mini vacation somewhere with me in a few weeks? haha. time to play some more tetris ds. (thanks roomz) | | |
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